I did go ahead and order God's Design for Science and I received the student textbook today, which necessitated a sit-down during rest time to flip through its pages. It's a very nice looking text with color graphics and the projects and experiments look interesting.
But this textbook is completely full of the "evolution is evil and downright stupid" agenda. However, it is done in a calm and factual manner; which is substantially more than I can say for some of the other
I am starting to get frustrated. And it's not the creationism vs. evolution rhetoric that's bothering me...it's ME that's bothering me. Simply stated, I have NO CLUE what I truly believe about the dilemma.
Anything I read that says "creationist" makes my mind come up with the "evidence" I learned to support evolution; and anything I read that says "evolution" brings to mind all the stuff I believe about creationism. It's like I'm a walking dichotomy of thought. Every. Day.
The situation has enlarged my view of how impressionable a young person is to what they're taught in school and what they hear around them during their formative years. I heard both arguments and I now seemingly adhere to both arguments.
I knew that I'd learn a lot of stuff myself as I homeschooled my children, but I didn't think I'd run into such heavy topics so quickly. I feel like I shouldn't teach this topic because I don't even know where I stand on it...and then I think it's perfect to show them that it's OK to not have all the answers sometimes.
We have scripture and I believe the scriptures to be true. I've studied a lot about the scriptures, how we have come to have the scriptures we have nowadays (ie. translations) and I just do not take the scriptures at literal face-value. Christ taught in parables and I think there's a lot of symbolism in the scriptures. I don't like being labelled as having less faith simply because I cannot completely throw my weight behind the idea that the Earth is only 6,000 years old.
Is it that terribly important to completely understand the minutia of creation? At the judgment bar, will God be upset that I didn't strive to more fully understand it in mortal terms? Or is this an important issue that I should research and come to a somewhat concrete opinion about? God exists, period. Is it crucial to hammer out each detail concerning everything on Earth, or is it really just another spin-off of the age-old argument about whose interpretation of religion is the best or the most right? Is God up there right now, looking down on all this effort to prove creation or evolution and muttering to Himself, "SO missing the big picture..."?
I've remarked for years now that I'm going to supply my children with both sides of the story in any subject and let them make up their minds, letting them know along the way what I believe and why. I really think it's the best way to teach...and also makes me feel my responsibility to bring them up in light and truth all the more keenly.
Perhaps I should just scrap the whole curriculum altogether and just focus on supplying their minds with information and appreciation, waiting until their logic-stage years to introduce the idea of evolution. Perhaps this argument is creeping up too early in our homeschool adventure.
But, on the other hand, I don't want to run the risk of ignoring it and having them exposed to pro-evolution and creating a bias in them. (And really, in a time where people are allowing homosexuality to be taught as a viable option to elementary-aged children, chances are that they will be exposed to the evolution question sooner than later. Childhood is no longer respected as a haven of innocence.)
I just want to do the best job that I can. I think this matter is something that I will have to take up with God in prayer. I don't think I'll come to a content consensus on my own.
Being a parent is hard sometimes...there are so many decisions to be made that may not matter all that much or may matter very much. Occasionally, it's hard to differentiate between the two.